are you a good person?

i love bringing people to reckless.
it changes them almost immediately.
i mean, it changed me. i never thought i would want God as much as i do now. its so indescribable. the unchanging, unmoving, unconditional sense of love. everyone seems to think of God as just someone to lean on and He is there for that but its so much more than that. its a lifestyle. its believing in His capabilities. its believing everything about Him and trying to the best of our abilites to follow His rules. not just praying for selfish reasons and hoping that you'll be answered. thats what i used to think. when i wanted things to go my way, i prayed and hoped and begged that a "miracle" would happen. you know what? my "miracle" never happened. going to church with my grandparents never helped cause i was always too tired to listen. yeah, i believed in God but i saw no reason why i had to read the bible and go to church and worship Him. i see why now. people want to be praised right? well, God is everything we are. He is everything we have. He created it all. so we worship to praise and thank Him for everything He has done. we read the bible to hear why we have everything we have today. we go to church to be inspired and to keep our faith. each time i go to reckless or church, my faith is strengthened times ten. it may fade a little in the middle of the week, but i always have a constant reminder. i used to think about God maybe once or twice a day. but, i'm forever thankful to Chris for inviting me to reckless. i don't know where'd i'd be right now without it. those kids there are some of the greatest kids i've ever met. so sweet and welcoming and kind. i really love it there. i feel like i belong.