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It's been a while. And a lot has changed:

My family
My friends
My love

Family; One of the biggest changes in my family life is that my mom is pregnant. It's a boy. Paul Edward Bradley Wood. She is due in about seven weeks and I'm excited but also very nervous and scared. Donna, my grandmother on my dad's side, has severe breast cancer. She starts chemotherapy in two days. It's very scary and it has put a lot of stress on the family. But, we're all trying to help eachother pull through.

Friends; I've made many new ones in the loss of old ones. I like the new ones more. We have huge sleepovers all the time and I just enjoy every minute of them. The group of girls and guys that I've been hanging out with has just grown to what it is today and I love all of them. Many of my old friends have stopped talking to me all together. Not even hanging out with me or anything. I don't really have a problem with it. I'm happy with who I have now. Very happy.

Love; Ryan William Demers makes me happier than anyone else ever has. Endofstory. No need to explain what happened and why. I don't need to prove myself to anybody. I did what I knew would make me happy and yes, it was at the expense of another person's happiness, but just so everyone knows, he made me miserable for ten whole months. So don't judge me. Don't even try to talk to me about it because I don't even want to here what you want to say. I'm happy. For once.

One thing that has not changed is my anxiety. It's only remained the same with its constant bothering of me. If anything, it has gotten worse. I spend my nights worrying and shaking and crying and sometimes, I even faint. I have nightmares. Constantly. It's terrible and I hate it. But, I have help from a few close friends and hopefully, things will start getting better.


That is all for now. I have much more on my mind. But, it's time to study.