i'm disappointed in you.

so, i emailed mark. we've been talking for the past two days. i found out i have another sibling. her name is ava. almost one year old. he said he'd send some pictures. i'm a little overwhelmed. but, i'm feeling a little less empty. like i have a new part of my life. i have no intentions to call him my dad again or anything. but he's finally in my life.

i hate feelings bad about that. my mom has been crying since yesterday when i told her. and when i try to talk to her about it, she doesn't really act all that supportive. "its your choice. and i'll be here for you." yeah. whatever.

i don't think she understands that woody will always be the one i love. he's the one thats been there for me the whole time. "do you still have that ring?" of course i do. haven't you noticed that i never take the freakin thing off?! he means the world to me. more than you'll ever realize.

and she seems to think i'm so stupid and that i didn't think this through. i've been thinking about this for weeks now. i don't need your help to make this decision. and iphi isn't gonna help me. i'm still gonna talk to him. you told me you want me to see her like she's gonna persuade me not to talk to him. i know its hard but its my choice. you don't have to freak out when you said i could do whatever i felt. "i wish you would've thought about this more.." i thought for two weeks. it was all i thought about. now leave me alone.